October 26, 2011 10 Comments
If you’re narrow minded, don’t bother reading on because you won’t like what you find.
I am not really a fan of writing personal blogs on here, mainly because I suspect the people who follow the blog are (understandably) more interested in reading about political/feministy stuff going on. I try to keep it impersonal. But I wanted to share something that some people might want to read.
This whole year for me has been one of doing new things, having new experiences, and figuring myself out, and figuring out what I like and what makes me happy. Trying to become more balanced and all that guff.
I’ll start this particular learning curve with some background information. My gran, bless her, is a stubborn 80 year old woman who is one of the most cynical people you could ever meet. She reads the Daily Mail like it’s gospel, strongly dislikes any form of religion, and is er, well, a force to be reckoned with. So imagine our surprise when she started having Reiki treatments a few years ago. It’s totally out of character for her, and my first thought was, she’s probably going to really hate the poor guy doing it when she realises it’s a con. But she did it a few times and she loved it. Now, she wouldn’t be without it. Her Reiki practitioner sees her regularly, and they’re now close friends.
I’ve been interested in alternative stuff for as long as I can remember. I don’t absolutely believe in anything but I’m an open minded person that needs some kind of proof in order to believe in things (no religion for me!)… I went on a retreat of sorts this year – and I came away feeling like I’d learned a lot but now realise I have yet to utilise the tools I’ve learned. I did a meditation class, and I really enjoyed it. I found when I was in a certain position that my hands burned hot, like they were radiating heat. I wasn’t near a radiator, and nothing else in my body was warm – how weird is that? I tried Reiki and I saw a Clairvoyant. I didn’t notice much of a difference with Reiki other than I left feeling more positive and proactive, and the Clairvoyant stuff… I found that really useful too, but I don’t really want to talk about that in a public forum.
What with being one of the vast numbers of unemployed graduates in this country, I’ve had to think of ways to keep myself amused, to keep my spirits up (have had my own brushes with mental illness in the past and I don’t want a repeat of that thankyouverymuch!)… I’ve taught myself how to sew, I’ve learned to use a lucet; new recipes; tried to learn to crochet (and failed); I’ve read Fuck It; learned about new feminist theory; I’ve had a great experience meditating; I saw a Clairoyant for the first time… I’ve been to one of those creepy talks about the power of the mind and I decided I didn’t need to buy someone else’s book to realise what I already know. And now I’m stuck again. It’s been about six months since I left Uni, but it feels like forever.
SO. I’ve decided to sign up to learn Reiki myself! Bit weird, considering I felt like I hadn’t really gained much from it. But my gran swears by it, and she would be the first person to tell me if it was nonsense. Luckily her practitioner is also a Master which means he can teach others – I met him, and we finally managed to get some dates sorted to do it. He is the most normal sort of person you could meet – I expected a soft-talking, stereotypical spiritualist kind of person. He actually reminds me of my mechanic – you wouldn’t look at him and think he is into spiritual stuff, let alone teaching it! So that was reassuring. I also thought that at £5 an hour, his course is remarkably cheap – cheap enough to write off as a bad judgement/mistake if I don’t feel it does anything. I start the first level (there’s 3 levels in Reiki) in a couple of weeks – I’m really nervous but also pretty excited. I’m doing it alongside a lovely Australian lady who is really spiritual and totally open-minded and prepared for anything, which is great. I don’t know if I will do the second, it really depends what happens.
Why am I posting this? Well, I wanted to see how people would react, I know for a lot of people it’s way too ‘out there’. I’d really like to blog as I go, after each class, and see how I feel it’s doing. I know it’s not political, I know it’s very personal, but I actually haven’t read that much about Reiki or experiences of learning Reiki/how it feels to do it to somebody else. Now I’ve explained it all and hopefully someone is still reading… Thoughts?